I have decided to end this blog. There has been entirely too much of me bitching and so much negativity. I am making an effort to be more positive and to enjoy things more. That being said I am going to be writing a new blog and you can access it at www.persistenceinpractice.blogspot.com . I hope anyone who reads this will read that.
Thanks
Friday, April 10, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Vacation, crazyness and the job always the job.
Wow so it has been a really weird month. Work-wise I have not been motivated because I took a mini-vacation earlier in the month and I ma officially on vacation for the next week. I knew that I wasn't going to hit my goals and no one else is either. They are talking about moving our goals up so its harder and harder for us to hit them. With the initial rush of the Iphone over I don't see how the company can expect to raise our standards and pay us less for them while out nation is looking a depression square in the face. I mean what is the motivation except to really irritate us and make us leave?
I had a customer who works for Cap One and he asked me to send him my resume and he would see what he had. I wrote one up and sent it to him on Tuesday and I haven't heard anything back yet. At fist my hopes were high but now I am not so sure. I guess there is no point worrying about it, what ever happens it will be for the best.
I have been slacking in Kung Fu as well this month, I have been very inconsistent. Work is partially the issue, if keeps me stressed out and we don't close until 8 so its hard to get out of there in time to even make it for advanced hour. That is one of the reasons I was excited about the Cap One job, it would allow me to really work and become better.
My zen practice has become non existent, I have a short temper and I have not been focusing on what I need to be. I haven't been playing much poker after going on a 6 buy in downswing early in the month. I have played a hand full of sessions and they have all been winners since though. Not really in part to a better mindset, but due to shorter sessions and a really good book I read. It is an e-book by Ryan Fees and its really really good. Now if i can just get my mind to where it needs to be I will be happy.
Melissa and I are going to Galveston this week so I will get to see Matt from kung fu. This is our first real vacation in 5.5 years and so its a big deal. We will be leaving on Tuesday and coming back on Friday, we are going to board Bella at a pet hotel. It will be a lot of firsts. We are going to stay in a Hilton down there and it will be nice to sleep in and see some different scenery.It will be nice to get away and relax and not worry about shit for awhile. I hope it allow me some time to recharge and really come back to make some headway in a number of directions.
As of late I really feel that I am wasting a lot of my time with a lot of stupid shit. I feel that I could be doing something more beneficial and working towards finding the one thing that I can really excel in. I know that sounds cheesy but I believe that everyone has one thing that they can be known for and be sought after in that area. I feel that most of the time I am pretty adequate in my pursuits, but never amazing. Maybe its prideful that I want to be really great at one thing, but I don't know.
I had a customer today who really drove me nuts. This was the kind of person who you could tell had done so many drugs that she was retarded. I repeated everything to this woman over and over and over, the same things, this is the price you pay today, this is the amount of the mail in rebate. It was like she was a gold fish, or trying to sell a phone to the guy in Memento. She took up about 90 minutes of my time and then she just walked out. Apparently she is a regular and has a history of freaking out in the store. Weird shit.
I had a customer who works for Cap One and he asked me to send him my resume and he would see what he had. I wrote one up and sent it to him on Tuesday and I haven't heard anything back yet. At fist my hopes were high but now I am not so sure. I guess there is no point worrying about it, what ever happens it will be for the best.
I have been slacking in Kung Fu as well this month, I have been very inconsistent. Work is partially the issue, if keeps me stressed out and we don't close until 8 so its hard to get out of there in time to even make it for advanced hour. That is one of the reasons I was excited about the Cap One job, it would allow me to really work and become better.
My zen practice has become non existent, I have a short temper and I have not been focusing on what I need to be. I haven't been playing much poker after going on a 6 buy in downswing early in the month. I have played a hand full of sessions and they have all been winners since though. Not really in part to a better mindset, but due to shorter sessions and a really good book I read. It is an e-book by Ryan Fees and its really really good. Now if i can just get my mind to where it needs to be I will be happy.
Melissa and I are going to Galveston this week so I will get to see Matt from kung fu. This is our first real vacation in 5.5 years and so its a big deal. We will be leaving on Tuesday and coming back on Friday, we are going to board Bella at a pet hotel. It will be a lot of firsts. We are going to stay in a Hilton down there and it will be nice to sleep in and see some different scenery.It will be nice to get away and relax and not worry about shit for awhile. I hope it allow me some time to recharge and really come back to make some headway in a number of directions.
As of late I really feel that I am wasting a lot of my time with a lot of stupid shit. I feel that I could be doing something more beneficial and working towards finding the one thing that I can really excel in. I know that sounds cheesy but I believe that everyone has one thing that they can be known for and be sought after in that area. I feel that most of the time I am pretty adequate in my pursuits, but never amazing. Maybe its prideful that I want to be really great at one thing, but I don't know.
I had a customer today who really drove me nuts. This was the kind of person who you could tell had done so many drugs that she was retarded. I repeated everything to this woman over and over and over, the same things, this is the price you pay today, this is the amount of the mail in rebate. It was like she was a gold fish, or trying to sell a phone to the guy in Memento. She took up about 90 minutes of my time and then she just walked out. Apparently she is a regular and has a history of freaking out in the store. Weird shit.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
man I am bad at this
So poker has been a bitch lately. I haven't been winning and I dont feel that I am playing that bad. I have been running like ass as of late. I got an Ebook that everyone is saying will help, but we shall see.
I got a new car finally. I got an '04 Infinity G35 Sedan. I really am happy with it. I will post some pics soon.
Nothing else really to say, I am in a sulky mood.
Later
I got a new car finally. I got an '04 Infinity G35 Sedan. I really am happy with it. I will post some pics soon.
Nothing else really to say, I am in a sulky mood.
Later
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Taking shot and getting running bad.
So this month I have been trying to take shot at the next level up in poker. 50NL, I have been playing well at 25NL and decided to take a shot. I ran well in my first session plays and ran bad in the next two, had a break even and then a loss tonight. I have made some bad plays but I have been getting screwed left and right as well.
I was playing with a guy from 2p2 and played a weird hand and stacked him and he got super pissed. I made a joke about it on the forums and he got all butt hurt. Calling me kid and taking it way to personal, what a loser. Here is a link to that hand, keep in mind a friend told me that he was super aggro and a monkey.
http://weaktight.com/722750 He was super pissed and then there was drama in the forums. LOL
There is a well known paradox in the poker world that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I didn't find it really harder just little more aggro with 3 betting. I just ran like pure ass for my session. So I am back down to 25NL for awhile. (sigh) I am really trying to keep my emotions in control but sometimes it is difficult. I will post some hand links at the bottom of this. I am by no means saying that I played perfectly, I was calling 3 bets lighter than I should because I was unsure of how aggro the game was.
In other news I finally bought a PS3 and I love it. I bought Guitar Hero 4 for the Wii and brought it home and it was messed up. I decided to take it back and just buy the fucking PS3 I have been talking about it for long enough. I bought MGS4 and of course Guitar Hero 4 and thus far I am extremely happy with the purchase. I have not watched any BlueRay discs yet but will soon. Now I just need surround sound and a line conditioner and I will be more or less set.
Everything else is meh. I signed up for vacation for the last week of next month and I really can't wait for that to get here. Just knowing that it is coming makes it hard to stay motivated. This month has been kind of a beating, it started out decently well but its going to shit fast. Every credit check I do for potential customers is coming back with deposits, I get more deposits than Wells Fargo it seems. January is never a really busy month, I don't believe that most people are going to hit their goals. I do have a decent amount of home products so it should be decent check I guess.
Here are the hands that have made my life hell at 50NL I hope you enjoy it.
http://weaktight.com/722752
http://weaktight.com/722753
http://weaktight.com/722754
http://weaktight.com/722756
http://weaktight.com/722757
http://weaktight.com/722760 Ak one time...nope
http://weaktight.com/722764 gut shot call really?
That is all for now, there are more hands but it isn't good to dwell so I am done.
(cleansing breath)
Until later
I was playing with a guy from 2p2 and played a weird hand and stacked him and he got super pissed. I made a joke about it on the forums and he got all butt hurt. Calling me kid and taking it way to personal, what a loser. Here is a link to that hand, keep in mind a friend told me that he was super aggro and a monkey.
http://weaktight.com/722750 He was super pissed and then there was drama in the forums. LOL
There is a well known paradox in the poker world that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I didn't find it really harder just little more aggro with 3 betting. I just ran like pure ass for my session. So I am back down to 25NL for awhile. (sigh) I am really trying to keep my emotions in control but sometimes it is difficult. I will post some hand links at the bottom of this. I am by no means saying that I played perfectly, I was calling 3 bets lighter than I should because I was unsure of how aggro the game was.
In other news I finally bought a PS3 and I love it. I bought Guitar Hero 4 for the Wii and brought it home and it was messed up. I decided to take it back and just buy the fucking PS3 I have been talking about it for long enough. I bought MGS4 and of course Guitar Hero 4 and thus far I am extremely happy with the purchase. I have not watched any BlueRay discs yet but will soon. Now I just need surround sound and a line conditioner and I will be more or less set.
Everything else is meh. I signed up for vacation for the last week of next month and I really can't wait for that to get here. Just knowing that it is coming makes it hard to stay motivated. This month has been kind of a beating, it started out decently well but its going to shit fast. Every credit check I do for potential customers is coming back with deposits, I get more deposits than Wells Fargo it seems. January is never a really busy month, I don't believe that most people are going to hit their goals. I do have a decent amount of home products so it should be decent check I guess.
Here are the hands that have made my life hell at 50NL I hope you enjoy it.
http://weaktight.com/722752
http://weaktight.com/722753
http://weaktight.com/722754
http://weaktight.com/722756
http://weaktight.com/722757
http://weaktight.com/722760 Ak one time...nope
http://weaktight.com/722764 gut shot call really?
That is all for now, there are more hands but it isn't good to dwell so I am done.
(cleansing breath)
Until later
Monday, January 5, 2009
A new year and new objectives
This is my first post of the new year so it is time to kick out some resolutions. There are a few but I think they are very attainable. We will see what happens.
1. To be at 200NL by the end of the year so if I decide to play full time again it will be at a level where I can make a good living.
2. Read and practice the concepts in my zen books.
3. Get a job that will allow me to enjoy my life to the fullest, something not in retail.
4. Be more consistent in my Kung-Fu and work more on it out side of class to become more well rounded.
5. Be more conscious of my eating habits and make them more healthy. I tend to eat a lot more than I need to. I need to eat less and space it out.
6. Go back to school
7. Pay off all of my old debts
8. Get a new vehicle.
It is a decent list I know but I have it written down and on my fridge so I have to see it every day and it will be a constant reminder. Updates to come.
My poker this year has gotten off to a good start, I can see how the zen is making my mind more calm and it is helping with my emotional control. I have made a little less than 3 buy ins in 3 sessions, so off to a much better start. The plan is to play ~25k hand for the month. Even if I go on a heater I will play the entire month at 25nl then evaluating if I should move up or not.
50NL has a lot of nitty regs and table selection becomes more of a factor, I have heard that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I want to make sure that I am playing well enough for that level that it is the best decision. Just because your rolled for a level does not mean you should be playing that level.
I have been reading my Zen book and this is the first real in depth zen book I have read. The others were primers and not really in depth, this one is very much the opposite and came highly recommended on Amazon.com and when I told Sifu that I was reading it he said that it was a good read as well. It is The Three Pillars of Zen by Phillip Kapleau. The beginning was very dry it was talking more about history and the differences in the styles and so on. I am now getting into the practice of Zazen, or meditation and it is similar to what we do in Kung fu. Today was my first session of actually meditating and it is actually very hard to do, it will take a lot of practice.
That is really it for now, I am going to work on posting more.
Until later.
1. To be at 200NL by the end of the year so if I decide to play full time again it will be at a level where I can make a good living.
2. Read and practice the concepts in my zen books.
3. Get a job that will allow me to enjoy my life to the fullest, something not in retail.
4. Be more consistent in my Kung-Fu and work more on it out side of class to become more well rounded.
5. Be more conscious of my eating habits and make them more healthy. I tend to eat a lot more than I need to. I need to eat less and space it out.
6. Go back to school
7. Pay off all of my old debts
8. Get a new vehicle.
It is a decent list I know but I have it written down and on my fridge so I have to see it every day and it will be a constant reminder. Updates to come.
My poker this year has gotten off to a good start, I can see how the zen is making my mind more calm and it is helping with my emotional control. I have made a little less than 3 buy ins in 3 sessions, so off to a much better start. The plan is to play ~25k hand for the month. Even if I go on a heater I will play the entire month at 25nl then evaluating if I should move up or not.
50NL has a lot of nitty regs and table selection becomes more of a factor, I have heard that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I want to make sure that I am playing well enough for that level that it is the best decision. Just because your rolled for a level does not mean you should be playing that level.
I have been reading my Zen book and this is the first real in depth zen book I have read. The others were primers and not really in depth, this one is very much the opposite and came highly recommended on Amazon.com and when I told Sifu that I was reading it he said that it was a good read as well. It is The Three Pillars of Zen by Phillip Kapleau. The beginning was very dry it was talking more about history and the differences in the styles and so on. I am now getting into the practice of Zazen, or meditation and it is similar to what we do in Kung fu. Today was my first session of actually meditating and it is actually very hard to do, it will take a lot of practice.
That is really it for now, I am going to work on posting more.
Until later.
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