I have decided to end this blog. There has been entirely too much of me bitching and so much negativity. I am making an effort to be more positive and to enjoy things more. That being said I am going to be writing a new blog and you can access it at www.persistenceinpractice.blogspot.com . I hope anyone who reads this will read that.
Thanks
Friday, April 10, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Vacation, crazyness and the job always the job.
Wow so it has been a really weird month. Work-wise I have not been motivated because I took a mini-vacation earlier in the month and I ma officially on vacation for the next week. I knew that I wasn't going to hit my goals and no one else is either. They are talking about moving our goals up so its harder and harder for us to hit them. With the initial rush of the Iphone over I don't see how the company can expect to raise our standards and pay us less for them while out nation is looking a depression square in the face. I mean what is the motivation except to really irritate us and make us leave?
I had a customer who works for Cap One and he asked me to send him my resume and he would see what he had. I wrote one up and sent it to him on Tuesday and I haven't heard anything back yet. At fist my hopes were high but now I am not so sure. I guess there is no point worrying about it, what ever happens it will be for the best.
I have been slacking in Kung Fu as well this month, I have been very inconsistent. Work is partially the issue, if keeps me stressed out and we don't close until 8 so its hard to get out of there in time to even make it for advanced hour. That is one of the reasons I was excited about the Cap One job, it would allow me to really work and become better.
My zen practice has become non existent, I have a short temper and I have not been focusing on what I need to be. I haven't been playing much poker after going on a 6 buy in downswing early in the month. I have played a hand full of sessions and they have all been winners since though. Not really in part to a better mindset, but due to shorter sessions and a really good book I read. It is an e-book by Ryan Fees and its really really good. Now if i can just get my mind to where it needs to be I will be happy.
Melissa and I are going to Galveston this week so I will get to see Matt from kung fu. This is our first real vacation in 5.5 years and so its a big deal. We will be leaving on Tuesday and coming back on Friday, we are going to board Bella at a pet hotel. It will be a lot of firsts. We are going to stay in a Hilton down there and it will be nice to sleep in and see some different scenery.It will be nice to get away and relax and not worry about shit for awhile. I hope it allow me some time to recharge and really come back to make some headway in a number of directions.
As of late I really feel that I am wasting a lot of my time with a lot of stupid shit. I feel that I could be doing something more beneficial and working towards finding the one thing that I can really excel in. I know that sounds cheesy but I believe that everyone has one thing that they can be known for and be sought after in that area. I feel that most of the time I am pretty adequate in my pursuits, but never amazing. Maybe its prideful that I want to be really great at one thing, but I don't know.
I had a customer today who really drove me nuts. This was the kind of person who you could tell had done so many drugs that she was retarded. I repeated everything to this woman over and over and over, the same things, this is the price you pay today, this is the amount of the mail in rebate. It was like she was a gold fish, or trying to sell a phone to the guy in Memento. She took up about 90 minutes of my time and then she just walked out. Apparently she is a regular and has a history of freaking out in the store. Weird shit.
I had a customer who works for Cap One and he asked me to send him my resume and he would see what he had. I wrote one up and sent it to him on Tuesday and I haven't heard anything back yet. At fist my hopes were high but now I am not so sure. I guess there is no point worrying about it, what ever happens it will be for the best.
I have been slacking in Kung Fu as well this month, I have been very inconsistent. Work is partially the issue, if keeps me stressed out and we don't close until 8 so its hard to get out of there in time to even make it for advanced hour. That is one of the reasons I was excited about the Cap One job, it would allow me to really work and become better.
My zen practice has become non existent, I have a short temper and I have not been focusing on what I need to be. I haven't been playing much poker after going on a 6 buy in downswing early in the month. I have played a hand full of sessions and they have all been winners since though. Not really in part to a better mindset, but due to shorter sessions and a really good book I read. It is an e-book by Ryan Fees and its really really good. Now if i can just get my mind to where it needs to be I will be happy.
Melissa and I are going to Galveston this week so I will get to see Matt from kung fu. This is our first real vacation in 5.5 years and so its a big deal. We will be leaving on Tuesday and coming back on Friday, we are going to board Bella at a pet hotel. It will be a lot of firsts. We are going to stay in a Hilton down there and it will be nice to sleep in and see some different scenery.It will be nice to get away and relax and not worry about shit for awhile. I hope it allow me some time to recharge and really come back to make some headway in a number of directions.
As of late I really feel that I am wasting a lot of my time with a lot of stupid shit. I feel that I could be doing something more beneficial and working towards finding the one thing that I can really excel in. I know that sounds cheesy but I believe that everyone has one thing that they can be known for and be sought after in that area. I feel that most of the time I am pretty adequate in my pursuits, but never amazing. Maybe its prideful that I want to be really great at one thing, but I don't know.
I had a customer today who really drove me nuts. This was the kind of person who you could tell had done so many drugs that she was retarded. I repeated everything to this woman over and over and over, the same things, this is the price you pay today, this is the amount of the mail in rebate. It was like she was a gold fish, or trying to sell a phone to the guy in Memento. She took up about 90 minutes of my time and then she just walked out. Apparently she is a regular and has a history of freaking out in the store. Weird shit.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
man I am bad at this
So poker has been a bitch lately. I haven't been winning and I dont feel that I am playing that bad. I have been running like ass as of late. I got an Ebook that everyone is saying will help, but we shall see.
I got a new car finally. I got an '04 Infinity G35 Sedan. I really am happy with it. I will post some pics soon.
Nothing else really to say, I am in a sulky mood.
Later
I got a new car finally. I got an '04 Infinity G35 Sedan. I really am happy with it. I will post some pics soon.
Nothing else really to say, I am in a sulky mood.
Later
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Taking shot and getting running bad.
So this month I have been trying to take shot at the next level up in poker. 50NL, I have been playing well at 25NL and decided to take a shot. I ran well in my first session plays and ran bad in the next two, had a break even and then a loss tonight. I have made some bad plays but I have been getting screwed left and right as well.
I was playing with a guy from 2p2 and played a weird hand and stacked him and he got super pissed. I made a joke about it on the forums and he got all butt hurt. Calling me kid and taking it way to personal, what a loser. Here is a link to that hand, keep in mind a friend told me that he was super aggro and a monkey.
http://weaktight.com/722750 He was super pissed and then there was drama in the forums. LOL
There is a well known paradox in the poker world that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I didn't find it really harder just little more aggro with 3 betting. I just ran like pure ass for my session. So I am back down to 25NL for awhile. (sigh) I am really trying to keep my emotions in control but sometimes it is difficult. I will post some hand links at the bottom of this. I am by no means saying that I played perfectly, I was calling 3 bets lighter than I should because I was unsure of how aggro the game was.
In other news I finally bought a PS3 and I love it. I bought Guitar Hero 4 for the Wii and brought it home and it was messed up. I decided to take it back and just buy the fucking PS3 I have been talking about it for long enough. I bought MGS4 and of course Guitar Hero 4 and thus far I am extremely happy with the purchase. I have not watched any BlueRay discs yet but will soon. Now I just need surround sound and a line conditioner and I will be more or less set.
Everything else is meh. I signed up for vacation for the last week of next month and I really can't wait for that to get here. Just knowing that it is coming makes it hard to stay motivated. This month has been kind of a beating, it started out decently well but its going to shit fast. Every credit check I do for potential customers is coming back with deposits, I get more deposits than Wells Fargo it seems. January is never a really busy month, I don't believe that most people are going to hit their goals. I do have a decent amount of home products so it should be decent check I guess.
Here are the hands that have made my life hell at 50NL I hope you enjoy it.
http://weaktight.com/722752
http://weaktight.com/722753
http://weaktight.com/722754
http://weaktight.com/722756
http://weaktight.com/722757
http://weaktight.com/722760 Ak one time...nope
http://weaktight.com/722764 gut shot call really?
That is all for now, there are more hands but it isn't good to dwell so I am done.
(cleansing breath)
Until later
I was playing with a guy from 2p2 and played a weird hand and stacked him and he got super pissed. I made a joke about it on the forums and he got all butt hurt. Calling me kid and taking it way to personal, what a loser. Here is a link to that hand, keep in mind a friend told me that he was super aggro and a monkey.
http://weaktight.com/722750 He was super pissed and then there was drama in the forums. LOL
There is a well known paradox in the poker world that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I didn't find it really harder just little more aggro with 3 betting. I just ran like pure ass for my session. So I am back down to 25NL for awhile. (sigh) I am really trying to keep my emotions in control but sometimes it is difficult. I will post some hand links at the bottom of this. I am by no means saying that I played perfectly, I was calling 3 bets lighter than I should because I was unsure of how aggro the game was.
In other news I finally bought a PS3 and I love it. I bought Guitar Hero 4 for the Wii and brought it home and it was messed up. I decided to take it back and just buy the fucking PS3 I have been talking about it for long enough. I bought MGS4 and of course Guitar Hero 4 and thus far I am extremely happy with the purchase. I have not watched any BlueRay discs yet but will soon. Now I just need surround sound and a line conditioner and I will be more or less set.
Everything else is meh. I signed up for vacation for the last week of next month and I really can't wait for that to get here. Just knowing that it is coming makes it hard to stay motivated. This month has been kind of a beating, it started out decently well but its going to shit fast. Every credit check I do for potential customers is coming back with deposits, I get more deposits than Wells Fargo it seems. January is never a really busy month, I don't believe that most people are going to hit their goals. I do have a decent amount of home products so it should be decent check I guess.
Here are the hands that have made my life hell at 50NL I hope you enjoy it.
http://weaktight.com/722752
http://weaktight.com/722753
http://weaktight.com/722754
http://weaktight.com/722756
http://weaktight.com/722757
http://weaktight.com/722760 Ak one time...nope
http://weaktight.com/722764 gut shot call really?
That is all for now, there are more hands but it isn't good to dwell so I am done.
(cleansing breath)
Until later
Monday, January 5, 2009
A new year and new objectives
This is my first post of the new year so it is time to kick out some resolutions. There are a few but I think they are very attainable. We will see what happens.
1. To be at 200NL by the end of the year so if I decide to play full time again it will be at a level where I can make a good living.
2. Read and practice the concepts in my zen books.
3. Get a job that will allow me to enjoy my life to the fullest, something not in retail.
4. Be more consistent in my Kung-Fu and work more on it out side of class to become more well rounded.
5. Be more conscious of my eating habits and make them more healthy. I tend to eat a lot more than I need to. I need to eat less and space it out.
6. Go back to school
7. Pay off all of my old debts
8. Get a new vehicle.
It is a decent list I know but I have it written down and on my fridge so I have to see it every day and it will be a constant reminder. Updates to come.
My poker this year has gotten off to a good start, I can see how the zen is making my mind more calm and it is helping with my emotional control. I have made a little less than 3 buy ins in 3 sessions, so off to a much better start. The plan is to play ~25k hand for the month. Even if I go on a heater I will play the entire month at 25nl then evaluating if I should move up or not.
50NL has a lot of nitty regs and table selection becomes more of a factor, I have heard that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I want to make sure that I am playing well enough for that level that it is the best decision. Just because your rolled for a level does not mean you should be playing that level.
I have been reading my Zen book and this is the first real in depth zen book I have read. The others were primers and not really in depth, this one is very much the opposite and came highly recommended on Amazon.com and when I told Sifu that I was reading it he said that it was a good read as well. It is The Three Pillars of Zen by Phillip Kapleau. The beginning was very dry it was talking more about history and the differences in the styles and so on. I am now getting into the practice of Zazen, or meditation and it is similar to what we do in Kung fu. Today was my first session of actually meditating and it is actually very hard to do, it will take a lot of practice.
That is really it for now, I am going to work on posting more.
Until later.
1. To be at 200NL by the end of the year so if I decide to play full time again it will be at a level where I can make a good living.
2. Read and practice the concepts in my zen books.
3. Get a job that will allow me to enjoy my life to the fullest, something not in retail.
4. Be more consistent in my Kung-Fu and work more on it out side of class to become more well rounded.
5. Be more conscious of my eating habits and make them more healthy. I tend to eat a lot more than I need to. I need to eat less and space it out.
6. Go back to school
7. Pay off all of my old debts
8. Get a new vehicle.
It is a decent list I know but I have it written down and on my fridge so I have to see it every day and it will be a constant reminder. Updates to come.
My poker this year has gotten off to a good start, I can see how the zen is making my mind more calm and it is helping with my emotional control. I have made a little less than 3 buy ins in 3 sessions, so off to a much better start. The plan is to play ~25k hand for the month. Even if I go on a heater I will play the entire month at 25nl then evaluating if I should move up or not.
50NL has a lot of nitty regs and table selection becomes more of a factor, I have heard that 50NL is harder than 100NL. I want to make sure that I am playing well enough for that level that it is the best decision. Just because your rolled for a level does not mean you should be playing that level.
I have been reading my Zen book and this is the first real in depth zen book I have read. The others were primers and not really in depth, this one is very much the opposite and came highly recommended on Amazon.com and when I told Sifu that I was reading it he said that it was a good read as well. It is The Three Pillars of Zen by Phillip Kapleau. The beginning was very dry it was talking more about history and the differences in the styles and so on. I am now getting into the practice of Zazen, or meditation and it is similar to what we do in Kung fu. Today was my first session of actually meditating and it is actually very hard to do, it will take a lot of practice.
That is really it for now, I am going to work on posting more.
Until later.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Christmas, poker some other stuff
Christmas was once again very crazy and busy. This one was really good though, I had enough money to get everyone something and get Melissa some really good stuff. I got Melissa a pea coat and a really cool David Bowie belt that she went nuts over. We got up on Christmas morning and then went to Gainsville to spend the morning with her family. It was really nice Bella went with us and she did better on the car trip and did really good at the house. We had lunch and then I took a nap and then we got up and came home before going to Mom's house. We went to Mom's and exchanged presents and finally made it home after about 12 hours.
It was a good day though one of the best ones I have had in awhile. I received some really nice things. A new ring an Ihome for my ipod, some nice sweaters and so on. The hardest part was work, it has been crazy the lat few days. I am going to start looking at other jobs but with the economy the way it is I am not sure how easy that will be. Hopefully I can find something that I will enjoy.
Poker has been meh, I havent been playing much, but I played a session today and did ok. I played decent for the most part I made a few mistakes but nothing too bad. I was up as much as like $80, then had a few beats and wound up making like $37. A win is a win.
I am really not in the mood to write, so until later.
It was a good day though one of the best ones I have had in awhile. I received some really nice things. A new ring an Ihome for my ipod, some nice sweaters and so on. The hardest part was work, it has been crazy the lat few days. I am going to start looking at other jobs but with the economy the way it is I am not sure how easy that will be. Hopefully I can find something that I will enjoy.
Poker has been meh, I havent been playing much, but I played a session today and did ok. I played decent for the most part I made a few mistakes but nothing too bad. I was up as much as like $80, then had a few beats and wound up making like $37. A win is a win.
I am really not in the mood to write, so until later.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Eagles of Death Metal = Awesome
The other day I went to the Eagles of Death Metal show in Deep Ellum. It was a pretty impressive show, it was a small venue and they just seemed to be really happy to be there. Melissa wasn't feeling well so she sat out for the majority of the show but it was still cool. I recommend checking them out, they are a good time.
Poker is doing better, I have been playing and have been getting sweats from other players and it has been better. I guess I just needed that reinforcement. I played a couple of satellites for a big even at The Basement. I have not played any live poker in about a year and a half. It was kind of weird to only play one table. The play down there was still as bad as usual. I had a guy call my raise out of position with King 6 of hearts and then open shove with a flush draw. When someone called him out about it his response is, "Well he is raising with ten 8" LOL good excuse.
So I didn't win a seat so I stayed home today and watched football. I made two bets on two separate games. Pittsburgh over Baltimore and New York over Dallas. It wound up being a push because Dallas won and so did Pittsburgh. Giants played terrible today I think they would have won if they played even marginally better because Dallas was not playing great either.
Here are some pics from the show the other night.
Until later.
Poker is doing better, I have been playing and have been getting sweats from other players and it has been better. I guess I just needed that reinforcement. I played a couple of satellites for a big even at The Basement. I have not played any live poker in about a year and a half. It was kind of weird to only play one table. The play down there was still as bad as usual. I had a guy call my raise out of position with King 6 of hearts and then open shove with a flush draw. When someone called him out about it his response is, "Well he is raising with ten 8" LOL good excuse.
So I didn't win a seat so I stayed home today and watched football. I made two bets on two separate games. Pittsburgh over Baltimore and New York over Dallas. It wound up being a push because Dallas won and so did Pittsburgh. Giants played terrible today I think they would have won if they played even marginally better because Dallas was not playing great either.
Here are some pics from the show the other night.
Until later.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Much the same
Things are going the same. I am still running terrible. Earlier I played a tourney and raised with KJ and was called in one stop by 99 the flop comes 9TQ. So I have the nuts, I bet and he shoves for an over bet. I call and the Q comes on the turn. Not even a sweat. Sigh, I am not sure what good will come of me losing so much money but I am really disappointed.
That is all for now.
Until later
That is all for now.
Until later
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Sigh.....so far not so good.
I played a session tonight 827 hands and really did not run well at all. This might be a test of my ability to rebound. I am not sure yet. Here are some of the hands...not bitching just amazed at the level of variance I had tonight.
http://weaktight.com/557049 I thought my overs were good, I wasn't expecting two pair with T9.
http://weaktight.com/557050 This is pretty high variance and there is some tilt here, but with FD and the gutter it isn't that bad if I am the only one with the flush draw.
http://weaktight.com/557051 At least it wasn't a 2 outer??
http://weaktight.com/557052 I thought that I couldn't get value if I bet but he might be firing like A9 or maybe even like TT here.
http://weaktight.com/557053 This is pretty marginal but this guy had a 3bet percentage of like 20 over a decent sample. There is my two outer.
I lost 6 buy ins. I am really not upset, I feel like I played pretty well and there wasn't much else that I could do. I should make that back later on. There were more smaller hands that were also sick, but trying to not dwell on that.
Until later.
http://weaktight.com/557049 I thought my overs were good, I wasn't expecting two pair with T9.
http://weaktight.com/557050 This is pretty high variance and there is some tilt here, but with FD and the gutter it isn't that bad if I am the only one with the flush draw.
http://weaktight.com/557051 At least it wasn't a 2 outer??
http://weaktight.com/557052 I thought that I couldn't get value if I bet but he might be firing like A9 or maybe even like TT here.
http://weaktight.com/557053 This is pretty marginal but this guy had a 3bet percentage of like 20 over a decent sample. There is my two outer.
I lost 6 buy ins. I am really not upset, I feel like I played pretty well and there wasn't much else that I could do. I should make that back later on. There were more smaller hands that were also sick, but trying to not dwell on that.
Until later.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
New books and other randomness
I have decided that I need to really take a look at my life and make changes to make me a more positive person. I purchased some books from Amazon that I think will help and they arrived today. Here is the list of books I purchased;
Zen and the Art of Poker
The Poker Mindset, Essential Attitudes for Poker Success
Zen and the art of Happiness
The Three Pillars of Zen Teaching Practice and Enlightenment
The first two books are obviously poker related but the last two are not, and that is because I have recently realized that I am a negative person in most aspects of my life. I am not sure if my life would be better if I was more positive but it can't hurt to take a look. I do have a semi large ego and I really have to remove that if I want to be better at all things. I was telling myself that I would just deposit to keep myself at 25NL because I didn't want to play 10NL. That is ego talking, so I have moved down in an effort to work on removing ego from my game.
I have played two sessions at 10NL and have done pretty well. It is a small sample but hopefully it will continue. I make decent money and don't have to make money playing poker, making the right play and being patient is way more important. Don't get me wrong money is how you keep score, but I am trying to look at things in a broader way. Was I ahead when the money went in? Would my play win money in the long run or was it stubborn? How could I have won more money with this hand/how could I have lost less?
This includes going against some well known poker wisdom and might get me flamed when I post a hand. These days there are less and less people with no knowledge of poker thanks to the U.S. government. As you move up you will find even less and less people who are unaware. So while most of the time against a donkey I would bet flop turn and river with a set, against a better opponent I need to look for an opportunity to check if it will get me more value. If everyone is reading the same forums and watching the same videos they are all using the same knowledge and I think there are less and less people playing their own game and instead just trying to use what they were shown in videos. Playing outside the box is going to be the best way to make money in the long run.
That being said I am not going crazy at 10NL trying to play this way. I am playing tight and not bluffing much because it is not efficient. I think that up until 50NL you can play super tight ABC poker and just fold post flop when your raised and have a decent win rate. I am however looking for opportunities to apply concepts even though I am not using them at this level.
Enough about poker, onto other things.
We are in December and it is going to be crazy at work. I am more than a little frustrated about how scheduling is being handled. AT&T is very union based and everything there is based upon seniority except for me. Since I am a floater apparently I have no call what so ever in my schedule. So I get to close EVERY night that I work except for two. I will not be participating in Christmas get-togethers because I will be working.
I have tried talking with management about how unfair this is and so on and its like pissing into the wind. I have given up, I am pretty burned out and its only been 6 months. I guess since I have decided that moving into management with this company is not the way that I want to go it is hard to really keep myself motivated. Then again it could be part of my mindset. The goal for next year is to have a job that is not retail so I get to really enjoy the holiday season instead of getting hammered by it. I am not sure what kind of job I am looking for but I think I will know it when I find it.
Thanksgiving was last week and we went to Melissa's Mother's house for lunch with her family. The plan was to come home hang out for a bit then go to my Mom's house but it never happened. They didn't cook or anything so it is not a huge deal though, they just wanted me to come over to fix the DVD player.
I guess that is it, Kung-Fu is going well and I am learning stick defenses and that is pretty cool. My elbow is still giving me some problems but I am going to try to tough it out a little while longer, if it gives me serious issues then I will take a break from Kung-Fu.
I am going to play a session and then do some reading.
Until Later.
Zen and the Art of Poker
The Poker Mindset, Essential Attitudes for Poker Success
Zen and the art of Happiness
The Three Pillars of Zen Teaching Practice and Enlightenment
The first two books are obviously poker related but the last two are not, and that is because I have recently realized that I am a negative person in most aspects of my life. I am not sure if my life would be better if I was more positive but it can't hurt to take a look. I do have a semi large ego and I really have to remove that if I want to be better at all things. I was telling myself that I would just deposit to keep myself at 25NL because I didn't want to play 10NL. That is ego talking, so I have moved down in an effort to work on removing ego from my game.
I have played two sessions at 10NL and have done pretty well. It is a small sample but hopefully it will continue. I make decent money and don't have to make money playing poker, making the right play and being patient is way more important. Don't get me wrong money is how you keep score, but I am trying to look at things in a broader way. Was I ahead when the money went in? Would my play win money in the long run or was it stubborn? How could I have won more money with this hand/how could I have lost less?
This includes going against some well known poker wisdom and might get me flamed when I post a hand. These days there are less and less people with no knowledge of poker thanks to the U.S. government. As you move up you will find even less and less people who are unaware. So while most of the time against a donkey I would bet flop turn and river with a set, against a better opponent I need to look for an opportunity to check if it will get me more value. If everyone is reading the same forums and watching the same videos they are all using the same knowledge and I think there are less and less people playing their own game and instead just trying to use what they were shown in videos. Playing outside the box is going to be the best way to make money in the long run.
That being said I am not going crazy at 10NL trying to play this way. I am playing tight and not bluffing much because it is not efficient. I think that up until 50NL you can play super tight ABC poker and just fold post flop when your raised and have a decent win rate. I am however looking for opportunities to apply concepts even though I am not using them at this level.
Enough about poker, onto other things.
We are in December and it is going to be crazy at work. I am more than a little frustrated about how scheduling is being handled. AT&T is very union based and everything there is based upon seniority except for me. Since I am a floater apparently I have no call what so ever in my schedule. So I get to close EVERY night that I work except for two. I will not be participating in Christmas get-togethers because I will be working.
I have tried talking with management about how unfair this is and so on and its like pissing into the wind. I have given up, I am pretty burned out and its only been 6 months. I guess since I have decided that moving into management with this company is not the way that I want to go it is hard to really keep myself motivated. Then again it could be part of my mindset. The goal for next year is to have a job that is not retail so I get to really enjoy the holiday season instead of getting hammered by it. I am not sure what kind of job I am looking for but I think I will know it when I find it.
Thanksgiving was last week and we went to Melissa's Mother's house for lunch with her family. The plan was to come home hang out for a bit then go to my Mom's house but it never happened. They didn't cook or anything so it is not a huge deal though, they just wanted me to come over to fix the DVD player.
I guess that is it, Kung-Fu is going well and I am learning stick defenses and that is pretty cool. My elbow is still giving me some problems but I am going to try to tough it out a little while longer, if it gives me serious issues then I will take a break from Kung-Fu.
I am going to play a session and then do some reading.
Until Later.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Overly Invested?
I remember a time when I played 5/10 limit poker and crushed. I was making 1k a week and it was just awesome. I had no concept of bankroll management or fold equity or reverse implied odds. I just played, thought I knew what I was doing and I loved it. I still love the concept of poker, I like the idea of being able to make money at it, which is not happening at this moment, and the concepts. Every little pot I lose pisses me off though. I played 500 hands tonight and lost two buy ins, well I lost one and donk/tilted off the other one. It puts me in a terrible mood for the rest of the day and just sucks.
http://weaktight.com/544125
For example this hand really pissed me off. It isn't even a full stack but it still pisses me off. I know that you cant be results oriented and blah blah blah. Bullshit at one level or another everyone is results oriented or else we wouldn't be playing. No one can look at my graphs and not be frustrated. I would be a winning player, all be it a small one, if it wasn't for all the bullshit. The three outers, the terrible plays that idiots make and they don't even know why.
How does one get back to a point where poker is enjoyable, where it is not a fucking beating every time I sit down and open up my Hold'em Manager? I pray for break-even stretches. Every time I make a continuation bet I cringe knowing that the check raise is coming. I sit down and play and do reasonably well and then look at my stats and I see wow I haven't won shit. I would gladly give it all up if tomorrow I could go on a run and make all the money back and break even. I would say fuck it and happily uninstall every poker related thing on my computer. I love poker in the pure form, but really hate the nightmare it has me in currently.
The job is making things worse, the next month I am being split between two different stores. I work 3 days at one store and 2 at the other. I get no choice in my schedule and it is fucking lame. They are setting me up for failure, I can't build any repeat business because people don't know where I will be, fuck I don't even know where I will be.
Thanksgiving Is this week and I don't think I could be less excited about it if I worked at it. Holidays now are just about scheduling meals between the drives from Melissa's mom's house to my mom's house. Then I get to work 12 hour shifts on Friday and Saturday. The serious goal for next year...NOT WORK RETAIL. I want a job where you get Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off for Thanksgiving.
I really should be in bed I have to go to a fucking work meeting tomorrow at 7:30. Yes, that is right 7:30 when the stores open at 10. The day before Thanksgiving we have a meeting for some really lame bullshit. I know if I lay down I will just lay there and not sleep. I really just want to open up 9 tables and play myself into oblivion, either robusto or busto, it doesn't really matter too much at this point I guess. I mean it is pretty safe to assume that it wont be robusto.
All of this is taking a toll on my relationship with Melissa too. I am in such a shitty mood most of the time, I am not really ever in the mood to have relations. It is really pretty terrible that all of this shit is ruining everything else.
I guess I am done bitching for now, look for more later
Until later.
http://weaktight.com/544125
For example this hand really pissed me off. It isn't even a full stack but it still pisses me off. I know that you cant be results oriented and blah blah blah. Bullshit at one level or another everyone is results oriented or else we wouldn't be playing. No one can look at my graphs and not be frustrated. I would be a winning player, all be it a small one, if it wasn't for all the bullshit. The three outers, the terrible plays that idiots make and they don't even know why.
How does one get back to a point where poker is enjoyable, where it is not a fucking beating every time I sit down and open up my Hold'em Manager? I pray for break-even stretches. Every time I make a continuation bet I cringe knowing that the check raise is coming. I sit down and play and do reasonably well and then look at my stats and I see wow I haven't won shit. I would gladly give it all up if tomorrow I could go on a run and make all the money back and break even. I would say fuck it and happily uninstall every poker related thing on my computer. I love poker in the pure form, but really hate the nightmare it has me in currently.
The job is making things worse, the next month I am being split between two different stores. I work 3 days at one store and 2 at the other. I get no choice in my schedule and it is fucking lame. They are setting me up for failure, I can't build any repeat business because people don't know where I will be, fuck I don't even know where I will be.
Thanksgiving Is this week and I don't think I could be less excited about it if I worked at it. Holidays now are just about scheduling meals between the drives from Melissa's mom's house to my mom's house. Then I get to work 12 hour shifts on Friday and Saturday. The serious goal for next year...NOT WORK RETAIL. I want a job where you get Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off for Thanksgiving.
I really should be in bed I have to go to a fucking work meeting tomorrow at 7:30. Yes, that is right 7:30 when the stores open at 10. The day before Thanksgiving we have a meeting for some really lame bullshit. I know if I lay down I will just lay there and not sleep. I really just want to open up 9 tables and play myself into oblivion, either robusto or busto, it doesn't really matter too much at this point I guess. I mean it is pretty safe to assume that it wont be robusto.
All of this is taking a toll on my relationship with Melissa too. I am in such a shitty mood most of the time, I am not really ever in the mood to have relations. It is really pretty terrible that all of this shit is ruining everything else.
I guess I am done bitching for now, look for more later
Until later.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
A few hands and some kung fu
I haven't been playing much the past few days because I took a Kung-Fu test this morning and was trying to gear up for that to make sure that I was ready for it. I was thinking about it and it has been close to a year since I have tested. I felt pretty prepared and it helped that I have known about it for 2 months. I am really ready to get on to some new things, I am not sure what I will be learning at this new level. Before now there were always things that I had seen other people doing at higher levels that I would look forward to and I haven't really seen much so far.
The test it self went pretty well I only had one big mess up and it had to do with a stepping pattern that is pretty funky if you don't have someone to do it against. It is called a Chong ma, describing it is weird but it is an aggressive bracing step and it is effective. Other than that it went pretty smooth there were a lot of junior students testing so I really didn't have to do much, stepping patterns, forms, some chi-sao drills and the triangle at the end. The triangle is what I was most worried about but it went pretty well, Sifu called it pretty quick so I didn't have much time.
Melissa was there and she took the new camera but because of how Sifu does the seating at the new school it is hard to video from most angles. Oh well, maybe next time. Chad came and brought Michelle his girl friend so that was cool, Pops and Kate were going to come but I guess Dad had a bit of anti-socialness kick in this morning because they didn't come. That kind of sucks because Kate hasn't been to any of my tests and she wants to see one pretty bad.
Work has been really getting to me lately, I have been getting really irritated about it and it was really affecting me outside of work. I decided to take a step back and decided to just let it flow, I can't control how many customers come in or what they are going to want to buy. I have better things to worry about than that kind of shit. I tend to nit-pick jobs and I am really trying not to with AT&T but it can be kind of difficult. I am making good money so I am going to pay off all my shit and then take a look and see where I am.
Now for poker; my last few sessions have been winners and that is good but I still have ground to make up. I have really been trying to break down my play and try to build up. A friend of mine sent me a post and told me to read it and I would find why I am not really crushing. I read it and it is so true, emotional control is my biggest leak. I am a huge Tilt-tard and it is something that I need to really work on. I am not sure the best way to work on it but I can't let a beat cause me to play terrible for the rest of my session. Link to the post is here, scroll down to post 37 and that is the meat of it. This guy is incredible and hopefully I can come up with something to turn me around.
Here are a few hands I played today that I found pretty interesting.
http://weaktight.com/535661
This was a hand that was pretty interesting. I don't mind my flat preflop because I have found that people stack off a little lighter in this kind of situation. In this hand the outcome is the same since he has KK and I have AA. The king on the flop really doesn't bother me because I feel that he plays AK the exact same way also I win a little bit more when I raise his Cbet and then folds if he has nothing. I got lucky on the river finally.
http://weaktight.com/535664
This hand was pretty standard I guess. I know that I am not supposed to be folding KK preflop for 100BBs but I knew I was getting it in vs AA here. I am finding that at this level people are not going nuts with AK or QQ preflop like this. Hopefully soon I will get to a level where people are a little more aggro and getting it in with KK preflop isn't always vs. AA
http://weaktight.com/535667
This was just a cooler. Stacks are a little weird because he is playing short, I knew when he snap called that he had T9, I was hoping for the board to pair obv but no such luck. Not a huge deal just made a note about his terrible preflop call and moved on. I really think that is the key for me, just stop dwelling and move on.
The session was only like 525 hands everything else was pretty blah. It is 3AM and I need to go to bed.
Until later.
The test it self went pretty well I only had one big mess up and it had to do with a stepping pattern that is pretty funky if you don't have someone to do it against. It is called a Chong ma, describing it is weird but it is an aggressive bracing step and it is effective. Other than that it went pretty smooth there were a lot of junior students testing so I really didn't have to do much, stepping patterns, forms, some chi-sao drills and the triangle at the end. The triangle is what I was most worried about but it went pretty well, Sifu called it pretty quick so I didn't have much time.
Melissa was there and she took the new camera but because of how Sifu does the seating at the new school it is hard to video from most angles. Oh well, maybe next time. Chad came and brought Michelle his girl friend so that was cool, Pops and Kate were going to come but I guess Dad had a bit of anti-socialness kick in this morning because they didn't come. That kind of sucks because Kate hasn't been to any of my tests and she wants to see one pretty bad.
Work has been really getting to me lately, I have been getting really irritated about it and it was really affecting me outside of work. I decided to take a step back and decided to just let it flow, I can't control how many customers come in or what they are going to want to buy. I have better things to worry about than that kind of shit. I tend to nit-pick jobs and I am really trying not to with AT&T but it can be kind of difficult. I am making good money so I am going to pay off all my shit and then take a look and see where I am.
Now for poker; my last few sessions have been winners and that is good but I still have ground to make up. I have really been trying to break down my play and try to build up. A friend of mine sent me a post and told me to read it and I would find why I am not really crushing. I read it and it is so true, emotional control is my biggest leak. I am a huge Tilt-tard and it is something that I need to really work on. I am not sure the best way to work on it but I can't let a beat cause me to play terrible for the rest of my session. Link to the post is here, scroll down to post 37 and that is the meat of it. This guy is incredible and hopefully I can come up with something to turn me around.
Here are a few hands I played today that I found pretty interesting.
http://weaktight.com/535661
This was a hand that was pretty interesting. I don't mind my flat preflop because I have found that people stack off a little lighter in this kind of situation. In this hand the outcome is the same since he has KK and I have AA. The king on the flop really doesn't bother me because I feel that he plays AK the exact same way also I win a little bit more when I raise his Cbet and then folds if he has nothing. I got lucky on the river finally.
http://weaktight.com/535664
This hand was pretty standard I guess. I know that I am not supposed to be folding KK preflop for 100BBs but I knew I was getting it in vs AA here. I am finding that at this level people are not going nuts with AK or QQ preflop like this. Hopefully soon I will get to a level where people are a little more aggro and getting it in with KK preflop isn't always vs. AA
http://weaktight.com/535667
This was just a cooler. Stacks are a little weird because he is playing short, I knew when he snap called that he had T9, I was hoping for the board to pair obv but no such luck. Not a huge deal just made a note about his terrible preflop call and moved on. I really think that is the key for me, just stop dwelling and move on.
The session was only like 525 hands everything else was pretty blah. It is 3AM and I need to go to bed.
Until later.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
updates and other stuff
Poker is going meh, I don't even want to talk about it. I still don't get why i am losing but whatever.
I bought a new camera and I have been playing with that a lot. It is pretty cool.
I was supposed to have a bunch of customers come in to activate new lines of service today and none of them showed up. I was talking about luck of the draw and how heavy it plays into this job. This guy comes out and says that its not luck and he just is a better sales man. This idiot was standing at the door and the first person he spoke with says I want to activate a line. It is not like anyone is really going to great depths to sell here, people come up and say what they want. It really pissed me off. I get stuck with long drawn out bullshit and he gets two new lines.
I am really tired of a lot of things that are happening at work. I might start looking here soon, we will see what happens.
That is really it for now, I test next Saturday so that will be cool.
Until Later
I bought a new camera and I have been playing with that a lot. It is pretty cool.
I was supposed to have a bunch of customers come in to activate new lines of service today and none of them showed up. I was talking about luck of the draw and how heavy it plays into this job. This guy comes out and says that its not luck and he just is a better sales man. This idiot was standing at the door and the first person he spoke with says I want to activate a line. It is not like anyone is really going to great depths to sell here, people come up and say what they want. It really pissed me off. I get stuck with long drawn out bullshit and he gets two new lines.
I am really tired of a lot of things that are happening at work. I might start looking here soon, we will see what happens.
That is really it for now, I test next Saturday so that will be cool.
Until Later
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Just kidding
I am a glutton for punishment. I have been playing and still running like shit. I swear to god eventually I will stop having the worst fucking luck on the planet.
Piece of shit luck boxes. I really just want to have a long break even stretch.
Piece of shit luck boxes. I really just want to have a long break even stretch.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I am beyond done with the bullshit.
I have said it before but it is the real deal this time. I am done with it. I cant fucking win so I give up.
These are some sick hands I have played that illustrate the fact that I cant win at poker.
http://weaktight.com/505695 who fucking 3 bets with 88 in position...guy was 15/11
http://weaktight.com/505696 just fucking annoying
http://weaktight.com/505697 nothing to say here
These are some sick hands I have played that illustrate the fact that I cant win at poker.
http://weaktight.com/505695 who fucking 3 bets with 88 in position...guy was 15/11
http://weaktight.com/505696 just fucking annoying
http://weaktight.com/505697 nothing to say here
Thursday, October 23, 2008
fuck poker
So this month has been terrible. I have done two sessions of coaching and still cant get it right or i am just running terrible. I dont think its all running bad. If I play a draw fast I get told to play it slow and vice versa. I am fucking done with it for at least a little while. No fucking reason that I have played for as long as i have and still cant beat fucking online retards. I ma tired of wasting my life and money trying to be good at this when it seems this fucking impossible.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Fucking poker gods/charter and I have a new nemesis
Ok so it has been a little bit since I have posted a blog. I have been dabbling in donkaments as of late and have been getting deep but then getting FUCKED at the end.
On Saturday I play a tourney where first place is $3k and I am getting pretty deep when I made a semi bad play and lost my stack. I was disappointed but I think his play is worse than mine is. Whatever, no big deal. Traditional wisdom says that limping is bad but there were lots of limped pots so I decided to take a shot. I think my line here is super strong and I think his call with the non-nut flush draw is bad.
Sunday I am sitting here with Melissa and I decide to see if any tourneys are going on. I login and there is a $10 with Rebuys and add-ons going on and I decide to jump in, since there is an $80k guarantee. I spend about $50 total and start to do really well picking up chips and running super hot. At about the second break I am in the top 20 in chips. We are on break. I go to take a leak and come back and my internet is not working. No big deal the breaks are 5 minutes long so I can restart my modem and my router and that fixes it (piece of shit Charter internet). I do this about 4 or 5 times and nothing is working and I am freaking out now, the tourney has by now started back and I am being blinded off.
This tourney is a huge deal $12k for first and second place is $9k, so I am walking around pacing, thinking. I try the desktop and it doesn't work. I look down at the modem and the lights are flashing, (I know I paid the bill). I start calling anyone and everyone I know who might have Pokerstars installed on their computer, they are all playing poker at a home game and not answering my calls at first, I finally get a hold of one and his internet is out as well.. My iphone is lagging a little bit as I am furiously dialing trying to get to anyone, I am so pissed and I almost chunk it against the wall, but I stop myself barely.
I am using my wireless to look for any other network, thank god I live in an older community where the people don't know how to lock their networks. Unfortunately they all have Charter as well, people really should have a little fucking choice in their provider, and I can't connect. Melissa is just watching me pace, I am anticipating how mad my neighbors will be when I start hitting the walls. I am trying to think of some place I can go to to use Wi-fi and then Melissa brings up Bakerstreet pub. It is this bar that we go to and its super close, I decide that its my only chance.
I run to the bedroom slap on some shoes and grab the laptop and dash out the door like a fat kid when the lunch lady announces they have enough to give seconds. I open the laptop up on my passenger seat and drive to the bar trying to pick up networks along the way. Not paying attention, running stop signs, no seatbelt, fuck it the cop can have a cut of $12k.
I get to the bar and sign in and half of my fucking chips are gone. I try to calm down the roar in my ears it sounds like am in a conch shell. I pick up a few hands that I can steal, then I get KK in the big blind and it folds around to the small blind and I am cussing and pissed because I know he will fold and I win the blinds, fucking great. I look away for a minute and then hear the attention beep and I look down semi interested. Not only has this fucking chump called, he open shoved for a ridicalously large amount. I gleefully call and expect to see aces, yes that is my luck, but no he has a premium hand of 78 off suit.
My kings hold up and the guy is pissed cussing in chat and someone calls the moderator. "we understand that this is an adult site, but everyone is here to have fun, please watch the language." Kiss my ass cock smoke, I am trying to play here. So now I am back up to what I was before the poker gods/fucking charter decided to fuck with me. I steal a few more hands, and am doing well, I raise a hand and miss and have to fold. I win a huge pot where I raise 79s on the button and the cheap leader calls and the flop is 987 and I get a call when he checks and I bet. The turn is a 9 giving me a full house, I shove for less than the pot and he snap calls with Ace nine. The river is a blank and all of the sudden I am second in chips.
I am feeling pretty good and am talking to my friend on the phone and he makes an interesting statement. "Do you know if the bar turns off their Wi-fi after 2?" Suddenly I am back in the conch shell my head is roaring, my balls are in my intestines. I get off the phone with the intention to go ask the bouncer as he is telling the drunk tcu trust fund bitches that the bar is closing in 5 minutes. Then I decide I cant leave and will look up the number and call. I find the number and put it in my phone and hit call. I wait for a second and then FUCK, its an automated system. Piece of shit, I guess I will have to go ask.
I hear the ding for attention, I look down on the button with aces. Holy shit this is it, a guy in middle position raises. I think, 'maybe just call because a rereaise looks so strong', the tricky part of my brain thinks, 'FUCK that,' the analytical side chimes in, 'raise that shit up'. I repop it and the small blind calls which is random and odd, but whatever the original raiser calls and we see the flop of 678 with two diamonds. The small blind who is second in chips overall (i lost some chips due to huge antes and blinds, damn turbo structure) bets the minimum and the original raiser folds and its my action. I am thinking about how much to bet when I look up and see the pot is more than my stack, I shove hoping to see him fold.
I am chanting to myself "Please no set, please no set...just fold, or call with Ace 7." He calls and shows 44. He has an underpair and a gut shot for the majority of his stack. He has 6 outs to win this hand. My head is spinning as I am looking at the board and his hand wondering if I am missing something. Then it dawns on me, wow this guy just crippled himself with only 6 outs. The turn is a 7, my tribal chant has changed to the rendition of, "NO 5, NO 5..." River.....5. I drop my phone as the automated system is still giving me the bar's hours and my guts wrench up. I am out in 37th place for $150.
I stare at the screen with my mouth hanging open, you have got to be fucking kidding me, come here moderator I have some choice words for you now. I dodge 6 outs and I have like $2.8 million in chips and can coast to the final table. Disheartening to say the least, play two tournies two nights in a row and cash but get fucked both times. I close the laptop and drive back home to the apartment in a much safer white knuckled manner than the previous drive.
Drk confidant my new nemesis, I loathe you with force that will never be rivaled, I hope you die in a grease fire. I would do terrible things to your belongings. Before I close the laptop I see him dump off around 700k in chips. I dont know if he even made it to the final table. I will check tomorrow once my internet is working and I call Charter and tell them I want a free month of service for all this bullshit.
The Hand is here if you want it
http://weaktight.com/455204
Grammer and punctuation are not important when I am pissed, that is why this is so bad lol.
On Saturday I play a tourney where first place is $3k and I am getting pretty deep when I made a semi bad play and lost my stack. I was disappointed but I think his play is worse than mine is. Whatever, no big deal. Traditional wisdom says that limping is bad but there were lots of limped pots so I decided to take a shot. I think my line here is super strong and I think his call with the non-nut flush draw is bad.
Sunday I am sitting here with Melissa and I decide to see if any tourneys are going on. I login and there is a $10 with Rebuys and add-ons going on and I decide to jump in, since there is an $80k guarantee. I spend about $50 total and start to do really well picking up chips and running super hot. At about the second break I am in the top 20 in chips. We are on break. I go to take a leak and come back and my internet is not working. No big deal the breaks are 5 minutes long so I can restart my modem and my router and that fixes it (piece of shit Charter internet). I do this about 4 or 5 times and nothing is working and I am freaking out now, the tourney has by now started back and I am being blinded off.
This tourney is a huge deal $12k for first and second place is $9k, so I am walking around pacing, thinking. I try the desktop and it doesn't work. I look down at the modem and the lights are flashing, (I know I paid the bill). I start calling anyone and everyone I know who might have Pokerstars installed on their computer, they are all playing poker at a home game and not answering my calls at first, I finally get a hold of one and his internet is out as well.. My iphone is lagging a little bit as I am furiously dialing trying to get to anyone, I am so pissed and I almost chunk it against the wall, but I stop myself barely.
I am using my wireless to look for any other network, thank god I live in an older community where the people don't know how to lock their networks. Unfortunately they all have Charter as well, people really should have a little fucking choice in their provider, and I can't connect. Melissa is just watching me pace, I am anticipating how mad my neighbors will be when I start hitting the walls. I am trying to think of some place I can go to to use Wi-fi and then Melissa brings up Bakerstreet pub. It is this bar that we go to and its super close, I decide that its my only chance.
I run to the bedroom slap on some shoes and grab the laptop and dash out the door like a fat kid when the lunch lady announces they have enough to give seconds. I open the laptop up on my passenger seat and drive to the bar trying to pick up networks along the way. Not paying attention, running stop signs, no seatbelt, fuck it the cop can have a cut of $12k.
I get to the bar and sign in and half of my fucking chips are gone. I try to calm down the roar in my ears it sounds like am in a conch shell. I pick up a few hands that I can steal, then I get KK in the big blind and it folds around to the small blind and I am cussing and pissed because I know he will fold and I win the blinds, fucking great. I look away for a minute and then hear the attention beep and I look down semi interested. Not only has this fucking chump called, he open shoved for a ridicalously large amount. I gleefully call and expect to see aces, yes that is my luck, but no he has a premium hand of 78 off suit.
My kings hold up and the guy is pissed cussing in chat and someone calls the moderator. "we understand that this is an adult site, but everyone is here to have fun, please watch the language." Kiss my ass cock smoke, I am trying to play here. So now I am back up to what I was before the poker gods/fucking charter decided to fuck with me. I steal a few more hands, and am doing well, I raise a hand and miss and have to fold. I win a huge pot where I raise 79s on the button and the cheap leader calls and the flop is 987 and I get a call when he checks and I bet. The turn is a 9 giving me a full house, I shove for less than the pot and he snap calls with Ace nine. The river is a blank and all of the sudden I am second in chips.
I am feeling pretty good and am talking to my friend on the phone and he makes an interesting statement. "Do you know if the bar turns off their Wi-fi after 2?" Suddenly I am back in the conch shell my head is roaring, my balls are in my intestines. I get off the phone with the intention to go ask the bouncer as he is telling the drunk tcu trust fund bitches that the bar is closing in 5 minutes. Then I decide I cant leave and will look up the number and call. I find the number and put it in my phone and hit call. I wait for a second and then FUCK, its an automated system. Piece of shit, I guess I will have to go ask.
I hear the ding for attention, I look down on the button with aces. Holy shit this is it, a guy in middle position raises. I think, 'maybe just call because a rereaise looks so strong', the tricky part of my brain thinks, 'FUCK that,' the analytical side chimes in, 'raise that shit up'. I repop it and the small blind calls which is random and odd, but whatever the original raiser calls and we see the flop of 678 with two diamonds. The small blind who is second in chips overall (i lost some chips due to huge antes and blinds, damn turbo structure) bets the minimum and the original raiser folds and its my action. I am thinking about how much to bet when I look up and see the pot is more than my stack, I shove hoping to see him fold.
I am chanting to myself "Please no set, please no set...just fold, or call with Ace 7." He calls and shows 44. He has an underpair and a gut shot for the majority of his stack. He has 6 outs to win this hand. My head is spinning as I am looking at the board and his hand wondering if I am missing something. Then it dawns on me, wow this guy just crippled himself with only 6 outs. The turn is a 7, my tribal chant has changed to the rendition of, "NO 5, NO 5..." River.....5. I drop my phone as the automated system is still giving me the bar's hours and my guts wrench up. I am out in 37th place for $150.
I stare at the screen with my mouth hanging open, you have got to be fucking kidding me, come here moderator I have some choice words for you now. I dodge 6 outs and I have like $2.8 million in chips and can coast to the final table. Disheartening to say the least, play two tournies two nights in a row and cash but get fucked both times. I close the laptop and drive back home to the apartment in a much safer white knuckled manner than the previous drive.
Drk confidant my new nemesis, I loathe you with force that will never be rivaled, I hope you die in a grease fire. I would do terrible things to your belongings. Before I close the laptop I see him dump off around 700k in chips. I dont know if he even made it to the final table. I will check tomorrow once my internet is working and I call Charter and tell them I want a free month of service for all this bullshit.
The Hand is here if you want it
http://weaktight.com/455204
Grammer and punctuation are not important when I am pissed, that is why this is so bad lol.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Could I really be a 2-7 prodigy?
I decided on a whim tonight to play a 2-7 tourney and played pretty well and actually won that fucking thing. Hell yes, that is 6 buy ins at my current level. Screen shot provided. Anyway, off to bed, until later.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
kind of a large update
A lot has been going on with work and poker and Kung Fu so I haven't been posting much. I am going to put a lot in here I think.
I almost got a new car the yesterday, I had been talking to a car guy about getting a 2003 Nissan Altima 3.5 SER. It is a very sweet car and I really want it. I decided to not get it, the rate is really high and the bank said that they were going to charge me an extra $2k. I am going to wait and try to find a better deal I think. I am getting a decently large commission check at the end of this month I might just hoard that and try to get a better deal.
The other day these two customers almost got into a fight inside the store, I was hoping it would have happened but it didn't. One was a big guy and the other guys was just a big mouth who didn't even have any reason to jump into the conversation. I was really hoping to see the big mouth guy get crushed.
Work has been going well but I am really tired of being the floater. I don't really ever know where I am going to be or what I am going to be working. I really cant wait for my year to be up I will then take a hard look and see what I want to do. What avenue I want to take with the company or possibly going some place else.
I got the word from Sifu today during the test that I was helping out at that I will be testing on November 15th. I am really pumped and cant wait, I have been at this level for awhile and I think I am ready to move up and learn some new stuff. I am have been thinking about certain things and really trying to work on the small stuff. It is the small stuff in Kung Fu that will really make you better.
Poker this month has been decent. I have played a lot of hands and am winning for the month over a semi large sample of hands at least for me. Last night I decided to play and got stuck early when my AA got cracked by QJ on a QJ4 flop. I wound up like 9 buy ins stuck, but I buckled down tightened up and made it all the way back up to win a buy in. My win rate went way down after the session last night but I am still up almost 5 buy ins for the month.
I think that is pretty much it. Until later.
I almost got a new car the yesterday, I had been talking to a car guy about getting a 2003 Nissan Altima 3.5 SER. It is a very sweet car and I really want it. I decided to not get it, the rate is really high and the bank said that they were going to charge me an extra $2k. I am going to wait and try to find a better deal I think. I am getting a decently large commission check at the end of this month I might just hoard that and try to get a better deal.
The other day these two customers almost got into a fight inside the store, I was hoping it would have happened but it didn't. One was a big guy and the other guys was just a big mouth who didn't even have any reason to jump into the conversation. I was really hoping to see the big mouth guy get crushed.
Work has been going well but I am really tired of being the floater. I don't really ever know where I am going to be or what I am going to be working. I really cant wait for my year to be up I will then take a hard look and see what I want to do. What avenue I want to take with the company or possibly going some place else.
I got the word from Sifu today during the test that I was helping out at that I will be testing on November 15th. I am really pumped and cant wait, I have been at this level for awhile and I think I am ready to move up and learn some new stuff. I am have been thinking about certain things and really trying to work on the small stuff. It is the small stuff in Kung Fu that will really make you better.
Poker this month has been decent. I have played a lot of hands and am winning for the month over a semi large sample of hands at least for me. Last night I decided to play and got stuck early when my AA got cracked by QJ on a QJ4 flop. I wound up like 9 buy ins stuck, but I buckled down tightened up and made it all the way back up to win a buy in. My win rate went way down after the session last night but I am still up almost 5 buy ins for the month.
I think that is pretty much it. Until later.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Birthday post and other stuff.
I have really been slacking off on this thing, my last post was August 30th. Today was my birthday, I am now 28 years old. I am very close to 30 and I am not quite sure how I feel about that. I have given a lot of shit to other people who turned 30, I know that it will be a pretty vicious turn around.
I luckily had the day off today and tomorrow for my birthday. Melissa was also off so this morning she made me an awesome breakfast skillet smorgasbord. Eggs, sausage, potatoes, and all other stuff, it was AMAZING. I slept in till about noon got up and had my bad ass breakfast, we had a bunch of stuff to do today so we were kind of rushing around all day. We have tomorrow off together as well so we can just relax and take it easy.
We went to the Apple store to get some stuff for our Iphones, that is right I said it, Iphones. I got Melissa and I both one on Monday. I took my number from T-mobile and it was still under contract so I had to start a new number to finish out my contract. I am going to let Kate pay the bill so that way she can have a decent service instead of shitty MetroPCS.
Myra's birthday is next week so we went ahead and got her present today and gave it to her when I gave Kate my old phone. We got her one of those small bikes, it has all the Disney princesses on it. She loved it. I have photos on my phone and I will post them later. She is such an awesome little girl and Kate is doing such an amazing job.
The Apple store in this area is pretty new and today was my first time to go to it. I would love to have a mac but they are overpriced and I just can't justify the money spent on it. I am still very happy with my thinkpad, it will be awhile before I have to buy a new laptop.
Tonight the Avett Brothers played a show at the Granada Theater and it was amazing. I brought some friends to the show and they loved it. Honestly it wasn't as good this time as it was last time. The sound was a little off but we were off to the side as opposed to being dead on so that might have something to do with it. Also the one of the brothers Seth was having some issued with his voice. It was still amazing and was over much to soon. They are hands down my favorite band right now and it is weird because they don't really seem like something I would like.
Poker update: Nothing much has been ging on I have been putting in a lot of hands and I think I am making up a lot of ground. Hopefully soon I will be able to move up to the next level. It is too early to tell though.
That is it for now, I will work on being more consistent.
Until later.
I luckily had the day off today and tomorrow for my birthday. Melissa was also off so this morning she made me an awesome breakfast skillet smorgasbord. Eggs, sausage, potatoes, and all other stuff, it was AMAZING. I slept in till about noon got up and had my bad ass breakfast, we had a bunch of stuff to do today so we were kind of rushing around all day. We have tomorrow off together as well so we can just relax and take it easy.
We went to the Apple store to get some stuff for our Iphones, that is right I said it, Iphones. I got Melissa and I both one on Monday. I took my number from T-mobile and it was still under contract so I had to start a new number to finish out my contract. I am going to let Kate pay the bill so that way she can have a decent service instead of shitty MetroPCS.
Myra's birthday is next week so we went ahead and got her present today and gave it to her when I gave Kate my old phone. We got her one of those small bikes, it has all the Disney princesses on it. She loved it. I have photos on my phone and I will post them later. She is such an awesome little girl and Kate is doing such an amazing job.
The Apple store in this area is pretty new and today was my first time to go to it. I would love to have a mac but they are overpriced and I just can't justify the money spent on it. I am still very happy with my thinkpad, it will be awhile before I have to buy a new laptop.
Tonight the Avett Brothers played a show at the Granada Theater and it was amazing. I brought some friends to the show and they loved it. Honestly it wasn't as good this time as it was last time. The sound was a little off but we were off to the side as opposed to being dead on so that might have something to do with it. Also the one of the brothers Seth was having some issued with his voice. It was still amazing and was over much to soon. They are hands down my favorite band right now and it is weird because they don't really seem like something I would like.
Poker update: Nothing much has been ging on I have been putting in a lot of hands and I think I am making up a lot of ground. Hopefully soon I will be able to move up to the next level. It is too early to tell though.
That is it for now, I will work on being more consistent.
Until later.
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